Hi, I’m Cami! An Introduction to the WHY

Roots and Truth

More About Me, More Information

October 24, 2022

My intention behind being here:

In second grade, I visually can view my body sitting in the corner of my public school classroom. I was reading and rereading a story I had written. As I read I could see vibrant colors, the canyon that we were hiking through, the whistling breeze flowing through the trees and the feel of the rich-rust-colored dirt.

As I read my story, I remembered the pain that the cactus needles caused as they punctured my through my shoe, as they reached my toes. I could see the baby blue sky fade as the sun went behind the peak of the neighboring mountain.

I remember writing this short story of me, my sister and my grandpa in the golden canyons of Southern Utah, and feeling so fulfilled when it was complete.

After I graduated from high school and moved out, I returned home and took time to clean the industrial-beige file cabinet located in my parent’s basement where they had stored my school work through out grade school. As I touched each coloring page and flipped through every notebook, I found that old writing assignment from second grade. The visuals ideas and memories that I had stored in my brain didn’t make it onto the page like I knew they had at the time it was written! Sadly—but not surprisingly, it was a typical paper, written by a seven year old. Simple sentences, no detailed descriptions or adjectives.

Then I remembered that seven year old.

She really DID believed that she could paint a picture on the page with her words.

This is what brings me to the why of my writing—I would love to honor that girl. The younger part of me that feels unfulfilled.

The stories that bring me here are inside of my little childhood heart.

I am knocking on the door of my fairytale land of not knowing how to fulfill her needs, but seeing into her and feeling her inner belief…and it is transforming something inside of me.

A Note To My Younger Self:

you have more tools now.

You have a broader vocabulary and a hand that is reaching out as you dig into your wounded heart. Also you have a rose-gold laptop. It is easy to pack up and take wherever you go! It has access to all the visuals to colorful effects and video editing capabilities to enhance your writing.

One day we’ll rewrite that story together. Until then, I love you!

As I’ve gotten to know that sweet girl over the last couple of years I am becoming closer to that child.

I’ve been hurting. I’ve felt pushed around. My self belief has had a damaging effect on my health and my immune system. My way of speaking to myself has not always been kind. I believe that I’ve adapted in ways that saved my life at times. And I also believe that I want to return to self—less adapting— more returning to authenticity.

I owe it to that girl!

As I share my writing I keep it real. Often it is describes as “raw”. Each post is left incomplete, because truthfully, there is always more to write………..

At the end of each post I share resources, ideas and sourced research that feels true to how I feel.

The interesting thing is—as I learn how to feel, I’ve leaned deeper into my own spirituality. I share my daily experiences, that have been the evidence, that I am closer to who I was created to be.

My hope is, as you read, you can recognize truths that feel like spark of light and add an illuminated hope inside of your own soul.

I include some recipes in these posts because growing health-full foods has always been a practice of mine. I developed a love for cooking early in life and was often in the kitchen sharing in recipes with friends and family. In fact, I feel so fulfilled cooking that I received a degree in Culinary Arts in 2008. I only share MY family-approved recipes! These are the foods that Curtis, my husband and our three kids, and myself eat daily.

With more attention, I write to those of you who are chronically ill. There is more to you, and please know that I see you! Please know that you have a voice and a strong mind!

With hopes that we all continue to heal,